Wednesday, January 20, 2021

Brave Enough

This morning I halted school and turned on the inauguration, as I've done in the past. It was beautiful. I was delighted by Lady Gaga's tasteful and lovely rendition of The Star-Spangled Banner. I loved the choice made by several of the women in attendance to wear purple, a nod to red and blue coming together. I deeply appreciated calls for kindness. I loved the talk of scripture and God, particularly the mention of James 1:5 in the invocation. I adored that The Pledge of Allegiance was presented in English and American Sign Language, both by the same person.

One of the most poignant parts of the day was the performance of The Hill We Climb, an original poem written by poet laureate Amanda Gorman for the inauguration. It was not only beautifully composed, but movingly performed. I read a bit about it tonight. She was about halfway done writing it two weeks ago, then the capitol riot took place. She stayed up late that same night and finished it.

As I thought about what I could write tonight to remember the events of today, her poem came to mind. So many lines resonated with me, but the last two are my favorite.

When day comes, we ask ourselves, where can we find light in this never-ending shade?

The loss we carry. A sea we must wade.

We braved the belly of the beast.

We’ve learned that quiet isn’t always peace, and the norms and notions of what “just” is isn’t always justice.

And yet the dawn is ours before we knew it.

Somehow we do it.

Somehow we weathered and witnessed a nation that isn’t broken, but simply unfinished.

We, the successors of a country and a time where a skinny Black girl descended from slaves and raised by a single mother can dream of becoming president, only to find herself reciting for one.

And, yes, we are far from polished, far from pristine, but that doesn’t mean we are striving to form a union that is perfect.

We are striving to forge our union with purpose.

To compose a country committed to all cultures, colors, characters and conditions of man.

And so we lift our gaze, not to what stands between us, but what stands before us.

We close the divide because we know to put our future first, we must first put our differences aside.

We lay down our arms so we can reach out our arms to one another.

We seek harm to none and harmony for all.

Let the globe, if nothing else, say this is true.

That even as we grieved, we grew.

That even as we hurt, we hoped.

That even as we tired, we tried.

That we’ll forever be tied together, victorious.

Not because we will never again know defeat, but because we will never again sow division.

Scripture tells us to envision that everyone shall sit under their own vine and fig tree, and no one shall make them afraid.

If we’re to live up to our own time, then victory won’t lie in the blade, but in all the bridges we’ve made.

That is the promise to glade, the hill we climb, if only we dare.

It’s because being American is more than a pride we inherit.

It’s the past we step into and how we repair it.

We’ve seen a force that would shatter our nation, rather than share it.

Would destroy our country if it meant delaying democracy.

And this effort very nearly succeeded.

But while democracy can be periodically delayed, it can never be permanently defeated.

In this truth, in this faith we trust, for while we have our eyes on the future, history has its eyes on us.

This is the era of just redemption.

We feared at its inception.

We did not feel prepared to be the heirs of such a terrifying hour.

But within it we found the power to author a new chapter, to offer hope and laughter to ourselves.

So, while once we asked, how could we possibly prevail over catastrophe, now we assert, how could catastrophe possibly prevail over us?

We will not march back to what was, but move to what shall be: a country that is bruised but whole, benevolent but bold, fierce and free.

We will not be turned around or interrupted by intimidation because we know our inaction and inertia will be the inheritance of the next generation, become the future.

Our blunders become their burdens.

But one thing is certain.

If we merge mercy with might, and might with right, then love becomes our legacy and change our children’s birthright.

So let us leave behind a country better than the one we were left.

Every breath from my bronze-pounded chest, we will raise this wounded world into a wondrous one.

We will rise from the golden hills of the West.

We will rise from the windswept Northeast where our forefathers first realized revolution.

We will rise from the lake-rimmed cities of the Midwestern states.

We will rise from the sun-baked South.

We will rebuild, reconcile, and recover.

And every known nook of our nation and every corner called our country, our people diverse and beautiful, will emerge battered and beautiful.

When day comes, we step out of the shade of flame and unafraid.

The new dawn balloons as we free it.

For there is always light, if only we’re brave enough to see it.

If only we’re brave enough to be it.

Tuesday, January 19, 2021

Soup's On!

Topher likes to come running into the kitchen while I'm preparing dinner (usually with whichever big kid is supposed to be watching him trailing closely behind) and ask, "Mom, what are you making?"

Last night his question was slightly different, "Mom, are you making bread?"

"No," I glanced at the finished bread on the counter from the day before. "I'm making soup."

"Soup..." he responded, searching for the right word. "Soup... is gross!"

And then he liked it so much that he ditched the spoon and used his bread to get the soup to his mouth faster. A bath soon followed.



Monday, January 18, 2021

Love Your Neighbor

Tonight for Family Home Evening, as a way to celebrate Martin Luther King, Jr day, we read I am Martin Luther King, Jr and discussed how relevant Dr. King's message and work are today. I told them that our country is not as safe as it should be for people of color, even so many years after the Civil Rights movement. The kids asked good, hard questions. I cried multiple times as I tried to get through the book, because the message is so close to my heart.


I concluded the lesson by asking them what Jesus taught about how we should treat our neighbors.

"Love them," they said.

"And who is your neighbor?"

"Everyone."

Friday, January 15, 2021

Airing Our Clean Laundry

When we got our couch a year and a half ago we relocated the futon into the playroom with the intention of moving it down to the basement. Then we discovered that it's really nice to have somewhere to sit while in the playroom, so the futon is still there. And, because it's a short walk from the playroom to the laundry room, the futon has become the default dumping ground for clean piles of laundry. The piles generally don't stay there for long, but there are some weeks when the couch has more clothes days than not. And now that no one comes over to our house anymore, we don't have the added incentive of company seeing the inside of our home to clear the space quickly.

Recently I've had the goal of finishing the laundry so that the futon is clear on Sunday for church. We don't use the futon for church, but it is in the sightlines of the room where we gather. That means Thursday is now my day to wash everything so we have a little time to put it away. That involves sorting the laundry into piles and then having the kids (except for Topher) deal with their own pile, then I usually fold what remains.

After a day of running the washer and dryer, I was determined to sort everything last night after Topher went to sleep. He's a busy little guy and loves to help by indiscriminately adding clothes to whichever pile he chooses, so it's a job best done while he's not around. However, my energy has been running low the last few days and my brain has been a bit foggy, so I totally spaced on the sorting until I was on my way to bed. At that point it was so late that I decided I would just do it today instead.

With that exposition in place, you will understand my surprise when I came downstairs this morning and found the laundry divided into piles on the floor, and a large chunk of the clothes missing completely. I quickly discovered that our early riser Sophie had gotten up and sorted the clothes almost totally by herself. Peter helped a little after seminary when she wasn't sure where a few of the items belonged, but otherwise she did it. Then she and Peter carried their own piles, plus Cooper's and Phoebe's piles upstairs to their rooms, which is why there were fewer piles than expected.

I was genuinely surprised and thankful and told her so while I hugged her. Then I continued to thank her again throughout the day.

She had a really good day today, no meltdowns or tantrums or anything of that nature. When I asked her at bedtime why today had been so good she told me she thought it was because one kind deeds leads to another, and since she had started the day by doing something nice, it made the whole day better.

She is a wise girl.

Wednesday, January 13, 2021

Like a Bear

I've joked for years that I would love to hibernate through January because the cold is so painful. I would definitely not call what I'm doing right now hibernating since that generally involves sleeping. However, I do get to spend January inside my house, only going outside if I choose to and not because I have to.

Today marks ten months since we started our at-home-all-the-time adventure, and it doesn't appear to be ending any time soon. But that's okay, because staying inside gets me through this cold month a little easier than usual.

And that, my friends, is a silver lining.

Monday, January 11, 2021

Advanced

Yesterday, in our living room, Bryan ordained Peter a priest in the Aaronic priesthood. Our Bishop and some family members were able to join over Zoom. This was such a blessing and, as my Grandma put it, a lot easier than having them travel to witness this special event. Next Sunday when we have the sacrament at home, Peter will be able to bless it. That is very exciting.



Friday, January 8, 2021

Thursday, January 7, 2021

Make New Friends

Topher got a big bag of Play-Doh for Christmas full of lots of tiny, party-favor sized containers. He's enjoyed having some creative play each day this week.

He's not the only one.